Friday, September 26, 2008

It's finally over...

Ok let me start off by saying the spots that I found went away on their own, and there have been no new sightings… If my Leukemia had returned those spots would not have went away, and more would have appeared. So a little stress has been lifted.

Next I don’t know if you remember my post from Smack down at a Funeral, but Rick’s Aunt Barb took him to court yesterday for an order of protection!! One, he only shut the door on her and Lindsey, and Two; he never touched her or threatened her. But none the less she felt a need for one (probably because she is psycho)… We put the kids on the bus and took off for the courthouse, once we got on the interstate Rick heard something about traffic on the radio, but it was turned down too low for us to hear. So ten minutes later they started with traffic news again, and the interstate that we were ALREADY on was closed at you guessed it our exit. About two seconds later we were at a dead stop. Up just a little further we saw some gravel in between the interstate and people were already turning around. So we waited our turn, in the meantime I called the court house and told them that there was a fatal accident on the interstate and that we were turning around, but that most likely we would be late. She stated that she would note our file, and gave me directions (forgetting one very important turn) so we went another 20 minutes out of our way, had to stop for gas, and ask for directions.

One the way back I called the courthouse again and she gave me some more directions (hey what can I say, we are not from that side of town) we finally found it, but wouldn’t you guess??? No parking available… So we drove all around the courthouse until we finally found a spot. We went up to the third floor, and I went to check in with the clerk. The one that I’m sure that I spoke with on the phone was on another call and the other lady in the office acted like it was a chore to see what we wanted. We told her that we were there for a notice of protection, and she replied (really bitchy I might add), “Those hearings started at 9am!” granted we were FIFTY minutes late, but I replied right back, “We called, several times, and she told us that it would be fine.” So she finally directed us to the court room.

When we first walked inside the judge was hearing another case, and we saw Tina and Lindsey so Rick sat next to them (Barb was also seeking a restraining order against Lindsey, you know because an eighteen year old girl is someone you need to worry about…)
Any ways about 10 minutes later the judge called all of their names, and they went up before him. He told them that this was how it was going to work. Barb wanted an order of protection from Rick & Lindsey; he didn’t want to get into the specifics of what happened a month ago, he asked them if they all agreed that the ties that held them together in the past no longer existed i.e. Granny had passed. They all agreed, he stated that he saw no reason for them to come together in the future, and they all agreed. Then he said that he would issue the order of protection for six months, if anything else came up over the next six months that he would extend it for longer. (I told Rick prior to going to court, just keep your answers simple, yes sir, no sir, and answer any direct questions only) So that is what he did, do you think Barb did the same??? Of course not!! She didn’t have anything additional to say about Rick, but she wanted it to be known that Lindsey and her mother both have been to anger management courses, and she wanted to play a tape demonstrating how Lindsey was brought up. The judge shot her right down, he said, “Didn’t you hear what I just said, I don’t want to go into the he said she said of what happened a month ago, I’m giving you what you want, that’s it.” She tried again, and he shot her down again. That was it. We were free to go, and we would receive our paperwork in the mail. So the minute he let them all go, me and Tina were already walking towards the door, and we flew down the steps (which isn’t easy in heels).

We walked the girls to their car; while Tina smoked we just caught up a little, because we were parked over by Barb. But of course they had to come out on the same side of the courthouse that we did. The minute she walked out she started running her mouth trying to antagonize them. Lindsey almost said something, but we told her to be quiet and let her go on. Then Barb started walking away she grabbed her daughters arm and started shaking her butt like Na, Na A Boo Boo. If I’m not mistaken I think I actually heard those words come out of her mouth?? It just goes to show, I’ve been right about her all along… NO CLASS!!

At least this chapter of our lives is finally over!!!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

What do you worry about??

Do you worry if your kids are going to turn out alright, or if you have just royally screwed them up?

Do you worry about bills?

Do you worry that your life is going to pass you by, without having done everything that you always wanted to do?

Do you ever worry that your cancer is going to come back?

Well that has been my worry for the past few days, not that it already wasn’t in the back of my mind constantly or anything like that… on Sunday I found a petechiae and just about lost my mind. (I had these when I was diagnosed with Leukemia almost three years ago) I had decided not to tell my husband about it unless more of them appeared, but of all days for him to come in when I was still getting ready (and I had not completely pulled myself together.) So of course the questions started to fly, “What’s wrong?” Nothing. “I know you’re lying, what’s going on? Then I had to tell him, of course he broke down crying. I told him other that finding that spot, I still felt fine. It just really freaked me out for a minute. For the rest of the weekend he acted completely weird on me.

Then yesterday I came home from work early, I only had a headache, but he completely wigged out on me. “What’s wrong, what are you keeping from me?” But really, my head was just hurting and I needed to lie down, that was it.

Today I found another spot on my gums, so if I find anything else I’m going to call my doctors office and have some blood work done, if for nothing else than just a piece of mind. But if I’m being honest it really is starting to freak me out. I’m almost at my three year mark. I can’t even imagine starting over from square one again!! Although I’ve always known that only 20-30% of AML patients remain disease-free, still that would be a very tough pill to swallow.

I’m still trying to remain positive; even though I’m scared out of my mind.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

It's official... I've lost my mind

Pictures of daughters room.